brick wall

I've been chasing this high for entirely too long.
The high I got when I first shot you into my bloodstream, and let all my problems and pains go.
the high I was on was surreal. After so long using you became normal and soon after that abusing also became normal. I would run to you everytime I had a speedbump in the road of life. Inject myself with the empty feelings of happiness and joy, and for split seconds in time everything actually seemed like it would be ok. I remember when I couldn't see myself being "ok" without you... I now know that I have to give up this drug. I have to detox myself and I have to go on with life sober. I can not lie I will miss the temporary solutions to my miniscule problems, but I know if I continue down this path I will end up overdosing.

long walks

trivial feelings.
nothing matters but the moment, she said.
as her lips met mine at that moment our souls intertwined and we were none...
not one, but none
this kiss that I longed for my whole life was nothing more
than random happenings of two hormonally charged kids
with no place to go and no feelings to give
no care in the world or no will to live
this all means nothing 30 seconds from here

goal.

sleep, watch game, eat, sleep, eat, sleep, watch game...sleep

oh the life.

I'm glad we're at an understanding.

with that said I need to masturbate.

-fin-

I'm glad to see you've settled down.

ashes to ashes
Or ashes to wine.
wine til we're drunk and we'll all be just fine
No memories for the morning, my vodka is mine
get so lost in the liquor I lose all track of time
Waking up on strange streets corners, where's that vodka that was once mine?
me and vodka have become one I noticed the signs when I went blind...
My eyesight gone, it's me against the world.
But tomorrow's another night ... another glass, another hurl.
the "best" sex of my life with an anonymous girl.
I used to stand tall now I am limber.
drunken stutter I fall yelling "Timber!"
there goes another memory I won't remeber...


-Khloe Daniels & Brandon "Dino" Brown.


I love you, you should never have a doubt in your mind.
but we've toyed with emotions so.
are relationship was once played out in songs...
and the most recent was "hate that I love you"
the line goes
"I hate how much I love you girl,
I can't stand how much I need you"

I admit I do feel like you're the only person I could turn too sometimes.
and that may be wrong, I put all my trust into a person who wasn't ready for it.
and that what makes this so hard I feel like it's all my fault although most of these circumstances I can't control.
but WE must remember no one is to blame and no one is at fault.
I love you, I always will...

Chillin with Thee Conz about to head to RockIt Man's As soon as Keeler gets here. Today is going to be great I promise!

Vurt

Today's mother day...
I hate that I can't take my mom out to some cool place for breakfast, I hate that I never got the chance to go shopping a few days prior to mother's day scrambling to find something just perfect for the most important person in my life... I hate the fact I was forced into emotions I can't control. Mother's day has never been a good day for me nor my birthday or Christmas or any other holiday where these angry confused emotions that I can't control come back even worse than the regular days...

My eye itches.

1st mobile blog. How the fuck are you? That's great! Can't wait for my bday which is in 23 days

as I'm the worst of all.

I'm trying to paint a portrait...
but you don't look the same...
and everytime the brush hits the canvas...
All I draw are blanks...
Your eyes used to calm me
Your smile used to put me in a daze
I'm trying to capture them both...But you don't look the same
The person who's posing for me isn't the person I used to see

I keep painting and it's becoming clear The person I love just isn't here...

So now a blank portrait hangs in the gallery of my mind
No face just a frame
But it's ok you keep moving foward
And as for me it's back to the drawing board.

She says she loves me, but....

do you remember 12/29?

I do, I remember January 12th also...
I remember February 18th I remember everything.
I have a broken heart. You have a broken heart and we're both to damn "proud" to get them fixed.

fucked I know...

my friends all lie and say they only want the best wishes for me...

Hello blog world
How the fuck are you doing?

My birthday is approching and it's weird cause I'm not excited, but then again I never am...

I want MTV to give me a fucking tv show...
Or atleast my friend circle it'd be amazing to watch my life played out on a tv. Shit would be awesome as fuck. Me and Conz thought about it
They would have to 3 cameras following 3 of of us at all times it'd be great.
Matter of fact I think I'm going to write it in...

I'll cry...

You're everything I knew!

From roses to razorblades to words that mean less than either...we all pass them out.

I rode by the cemetary yesterday and it didn't hurt I just waved and kept going...
I used to mentally breakdown when that happened but now it's cool. I'd of course rather ride by an appartment complex or a place of work but oh well...

I am learning to enjoy the moment forgetting the past and not worrying about the future to much.

"Your memories are immortal, not you...but your memories and thoughts"- Berris (under the influence)
that was some deep shit for a high ass nigga to say...

Fuckin' Lions better do something this year or I'll be up-fucking-set as hell!

This post is all over the place I know...but fuck you! Lol

Someone needs to loan me like 250 bucks ASAP.

I want the "Raging Bull" Air Jordan V package, the Sidekick LX '09 or the samsung Memoir and another tattoo for my birthday...oh yea and my got damned baby back.

I'm afraid.
(Why are you afraid, Dino?)

I'm afraid because I don't think I'll be in your future...
and it'll be my own fault because soundtrack to suicide keeps playing on my mental stereo.

I've kinda come to terms with my mom not being around and that scares the fuck out of me as well. I feel like I forget to think about her un purposely (of course) but I still find my self forcing memories to come back to me. I feel like she's dying once more since all I know is mourning for her and now I'm not anymore and I'm not sure how to handle it. Like I feel if I'm happy about this I'll be wrong, and if I'm upset about it I'm also wrong.

I spent most of my life trying to find that comfort and once I found it. I was happy and then some signals got crossed and shit got switched and now I'm trying to get the comfort of that hug back.
I'm trying to get the girl who was so sure she wanted to be Mrs. Brandon J. Brown.
I understand she needs time to figure herself out. But I just wished it'd be quicker lol.
But we all know you can't rush perfection. (allthough she was already perfect in my eyes) I love you...and I hope things work out between us and if not then I hope things work out for both of us lol.

Well I'm outta here folks "Family Matters" is on and it's 5 in the morning.

are you ADHD!

N.E.R.D concert deux

Crowd surfed got dropped, moshed got punched,
Spazzing the fuck out...
I love my ever extending family I.e. friends

Kasey kicked my ass in MK vs. DC

Boomsheeka!

uhh chillin' here with Kasey. Got smacked with the nostalgia stick, all the crazy shit I did in 9th and 10th grade. I remember everyone thought me and N!kki P. were dating cause we made out like everyday damn near nonestop. I remember the promise I made to Kasey that once she "grew up" I'd date her. I remember that enormous foodfight in the lunch room. I remember being a "rapper" haha...

I'm not going to judge anyone by theire reputations, because today disproved a lot of shit.

Lets Jam!

Woke up to a swolen lip. Shit hurt like hell... I guess I bit my lip while I was sleep and caused it to happen.
I took out my lip ring... for about 10 mins and put it back in. (Painful but worth it.)

These past few days have been weird to say the least. I've pushed a few people to edge with my back against the wall. Nonetheless (is that one word?) it seemed like all that pushing was in vain since I feel I've become closer to you all, atleast it seems.

In other news Octopussy is on encore and it makes me want to be a spy. Like on some forserial shit how do you get a job like that?!
I always wondered what quilifies you to be great enough to be "assassinated" instead of being "murdered".
Not saying I want to be assassinated but I want to be great enough to the point were if I am murdered it would be. (If that makes any sense.)

Well those were my random thoughts of the day I'll holla niggas!

area codes.

1. Grr... we will never stop.
2. I'm diggin' you, you diggin' me. I just have a feeling we'll get stuck in the "friend zone"
3. I don't want to know yo life I really just wanna smash.
4. You cool, but you want to much and I just can't give it to you. I wish you would realize that.
5. Funny how time changes shit. Ain't it...?
6. Bestfriend exfriends to the end, better off as lovers but not the other way around.
7. Damn you Jamicans and Germans.
8. I wish we could get those old days back.
9. Come back, please...?
10. So you gay, but you like niggas but you gay so you like bitches...?
8+2 simple rules for dating somebodies daughter.

I'll admit I've always had lady problems. Probably always will. Eh..

this is a stick up.

Like you...
I don't know how to feel.

As the days go by I am losing the thought of "our daughter" the one you want to dress up in little swimsuits and parade her around. I am losing sight of our wedding day. I am losing site of us even hanging out on my birthday after your prom. =/

My feelings are still here but I don't know if I want them, only because I don't know where we stand anymore... and I am also tired of talking about I just want "us" back, and I understand you're not ready for that again and it hurts to know, but it'd be selfish to not let you get whatever it is you have out of your system.

Grr..

just shoot me.

Niggas be wildin'

I'm on my way to the free ass hell N.E.R.D concert. To bad it's all dark and gloomy lookin' oh well, Pretty much everybody important will be there haha.

I'm about to go holla at a few skeezers. Just to see if I still have it. Who the fuck am I kidding?! I am Brandon "Dino Mothafuckin" Brown. Of course I still have it. I made it and sold that shit to the masses. Haha.
Yea I got a big ego so swallow that or suck a dick either way I'm still the shit.

It's this creepy guy on the bus who won't stop looking at me. I can honestly say since I got my lip pierced I've been gettin a hell of a lot more judgmental looks. It's funny and fucked up all at the same time.

In other news I'm going to see my mommy tomorrow haven't went to see her since fall. We got a lot of catching up to do. I'm starting to except the fact she's not physically here a lot more within the past coupld of days. I know I'll probably never be 100% ok with that fact but I'm working on it.

Peace out pimps and pimpettes.

posting. setting. layout.

always strapped when I hit the club...
niggas give me dap...
bitches give me hugs.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?

If I'm a joke you're the punchline.
tomorrow will kick off an experiment.
I can not unveil the details just yet but if everything goes right
a few hearts will be broken
a few egos will be bruised
a few lies will be told
a few truths as well.
I few will see heaven
the rest will see....well
nothing in particular
oblivion will come to those who don't....
comply with I.