3.12.08

tattooed tears and smeared make-up

ahh...
lets see how deep we can get

I've come to terms I often live in the past, not as in wanting to go back
but having no clue as to when the past becomes the present and so on an so forth...

I mean the blur between now and two seconds ago scares the shit out of me sometimes...
and even worse the blur between now and two seconds from now...
It's enough to put you on edge not knowing what is next (at least it is for me)
I'm sure if you know me you know how deathly afraid of change (aka the future)
I am impatientent and for lack of a better term noisy as shit...
so I have a "I must know everything and I must know it now" mentality and that just aint how time works and it bothers me...

I think thats like the worse feeling in the world knowing you can't do shit about something
I guess I'll get over one day but for now...GAH!

well I gotta go get ready for work so I'll see you folks after the jump

1 comment:

ess.jay said...

Time is, different for everyone I think.
I hate waiting for the future, I want it to come. The past doesn't really mean much to me. But that's just me, you know?