Don't ask for permission just ask for forgiveness.
Can you miss something you never really lost? 'Cause I sure as hell do miss myself.
I was looking at a pic of me in the 10th grade and I miss him.
I was Brandon then, not Dino, not Zew/Zoo, it was after Binky.
It was before the lovedrunk person who feels as if he can't stand alone.
I stood alone, by myself just me and my addictions I had no problems in the world.
I never showed my real eyes because of two reasons they were always bloodshot due to the lack of sleep and all the drugs. The other reason was because I didn't like people being able to view my soul. I liked my people like cross country racing I needed some distance. haha
but no one knew what was going on in my head not even me at some times. and I liked it. it gave me a edge if I felt threatened I could quickly shut down the fort and that'd be the it.
now I have friends that I actually care about and care about me... and I feel if anyone cares about you you will let them down at one point and time and vis versa. Which is where i get even more confused.
WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP ALLOWING MYSELF TO GET HURT?
the drugs the drugs all the drugs.
I wish it was that easy to just go back to be being Brandon from the 10th grade.
but I know it would hurt everyone who cares and I just can't do that to them.
vicious Masochism cycle of pleasure, passion, and pain.
bounce
About Me
- Dino.
- I am a son of Anarchy born to deplete conventionality and the basis of a "normal" society and create a more peaceful place by riding the world of religion and greed.
1 comment:
You can absolutely miss something you never lost. Doesn't mean you should want it back too.
The reason you are the you that you are right now is because you couldn't, for whatever reason(s), be the person you once were.
And it's okay to not feel like you can't stand alone. It's good to have people to lean on. People need other people.
Getting hurt? That's just a part of life...
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