My deepest fears

so....

My true "deepest" is that I will be the sole reason that the world collapses, like dead serious me and a few of my beautiful friends were speaking on this last night.

I have always known that I was "different" different from most of my surroundings,and different from my family and friends...
I have never thought like most and I think my thought process is ridiculously "abnormal", Like I admirer trouble or evil shit as in the Mafia, Lucky Luciano, Hitler, Napolean, Atliha the Hun....carzy fuckers like that, like I know if I were in a movie about super heroes and villians I'd be a fucking vilian. It's scary to think like that...

I'm also hell bent on changing the world for the better (atleast in my opinion) which may be a bad thing because I'll throw the "order" of our world in to loop and bring upon chaos.

I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED....

nah fuck that I want you to hate my guts...