make it rain.

give us a buzz.

I miss my Mommy, A lot.
no crying just thinking

I'm glad I have a "new" mommy (India's mom) She is wonderful.
I'm glad I have India.
I'm glad I have my friends.
I'm glad I have my sisters and my nephews.
I'm glad I have life.

moral of this story is I'm happy.
I have an opportunity coming up to get out of Detroit.
not far but at least it's not Detroit.
I'm going to take it get me a car and I'll be set.
start school in Jan. Gah I can't wait.

TMI I have gas like a fuckin' Iraqi oil rig.

I want 5 more tattoos and then I'm going to get my Cross finished ann then I will stop.
(maybe)
still plan on getting that tattooing gun soon so I shall need some victims haha

I love my ButtButt (one of the many nicknames I call Mrs. Brown.)

can't wait until 2011...

leavin this one here peace out folks.

dreamin'

as I watch you sleep, hoping you're doing the same as I.
Dreaming.
dreaming about memories past and those yet to come
dreams about our wedding day and our first son.
dreams about arguing and making up.
dreaming of such wonderful things I never want to wake up
dreams of "wasting" days on in.
dreaming of every split second that we spend
dreaming of me dreaming of you.
I dream of rewinding time back to December 29th (2007) and meet you all over again so I could right back in love with you.
I dream of fast forwarding the time through every sad moment you and I go through
I dream of me and you
I dream of us.
I dream of we.
because since the day I met you it was no longer just "me".

It was Us and(in) a Dream.

Studio 19 (II)

http://tradeitall.blogspot.com/2008/09/studio-19-first-scenes.html
check it out first.If you havn't already

We last left of with Carter and and Anthony making a dash for the first subway that would lead them downtown which is where Studio 19 the newest high school club that has people going mad.

Carter: yes! we made it.
Anthony: (panting because he's short of breath) haha yea.
Carter: this party better be as hype as Jaque said or I'm gunna be pissed.
Anthony: at least we would have gotten out tonight
Carter: yea I guess so.

just then they see there friends from school Aurora Blair and Miguel D'Jesus

Carter: ayo what up Ms. Blair!?
Aurora: Carter please don't call me by my government name
Carter: Oh shit, My bad (laughs)
Anthony: So were you guys going?
Miguel: To this party at some club called Studio 19 (looking disgusted)
Anthony: why you so mad.
Miguel: cause I didn't want to go but Aurora is making me come with her.
Carter: pussy whipped!
Aurora: Shut up Carter Miguel is just my bestfriend!
Carter: (to Anthony) this nigga don't even like pussy.
Anthony: hey who knows.
Miguel: Secrets have no friends!
Aurora: yea they don't.
Anthony: we were talking about something that happened earlier (trying to keep from bursting into laughter)

DING!

the train stops, and they are finally there. The four friends walk toward the club which was roughly 2 blocks away from the subway tunnel.the line is relatively long which indicates the party is hype!

Anthony: whoa!
Carter: yea looks like I'm going back home.
Anthony Miguel and Aurora: What!? Why!?
Carter: ain't no party worth that wait

Carter phone rings it's Jaque again

Jaque: where you at!?
Carter: outside I'm about to go I ain't waiting in this long as line!
Jaque: C'mon I know he owner come to the front of the line and just tell the guards you know Evan.
Carter: alright, this shit better work
Jaque: it will!
Carter: C'mon guys (waving Anthony Aurora and Miguel to the front of the line)
Guard: You can't be here.
Carter: I know Evan.
Guard: Evan who!?
Carter: (not sure what to say) The owner!
Guard: what do they look like?

Jaque, comes out with two females
Lauren "Lola"Gisebelle a pretty nice girl from Webster HS that is known for her dreams of being a hollywood actress and making it big one day!
and Princess Morris is a quick tempered chick that not much is known about. except that she has been crushing on Anthony since the day that met back in sophmore year.
they all walk out the club. Jaque whispers something into the Guard's ear.

Guard: haha Ok, but just this once.
Jaque: thanks baby (winking at the guard)
Anthony: (to Jaque) you got it like that!?
Jaque: Of Course.

they enter the club and the lights pretty much throw them into a amazed state and they almost instantly get the urge to dance.

Carter grabs Jaque, anthony grabs princess, and Aurora grabs Miguel, leaving Lola to wonder off to find a dancing partner so she won't be left out.She comes back with a guy by the name of Chase Martin who goes to Webster's rival school Lakesent he is none around the city for being one of the best dancers.

Chase: So what's up?
Lola: nothing much, just didn't want to be left out all of my friends have dancing partners but me!
Chase: haha so what's your name?
Lola: (trying to keep up with Chase's dancing) what you say baby?
Chase: (in a louder tone) What is your name!?
Lola: Lauren but you can call me Lola.
Chase: so you don't want to know mines?
Lola: nah, just keep dancing!
Chase: well I'll tell you anyway the name is Chase!
Lola: Cool.

Jaque then grabs Aurora Lola and Princess from there dancing partners and goes to the bathroom, It's pretty crowed in the bathroom so they wait until it's empty.Jaque grabs her purse and takes out a small Ziplock of pills and takes one.

Lola: what was that?
Jaque: (laughs) nothing
Lola: you better tell me!
Jaque: ok if you insist it was ecstacy, you want one?
Lola: No!
Jaque: (looks toward Princess and Aurora) you guys want one?
Aurora: nah... I'm cool on the drugs
Jaque: come on it's not like you'll get addicted!
Lola: I don't know Jaque.
Jaque: C'mon just take a half of one.
Lola: (looking a lil frustrated and pressured) Ok I guess it won't hurt.
Jaque: (to Princess,who is texting Anthony) You wanna try it.
Princesss: sure why not, I'll take the other half.
Jaque: alright, Aurora you sure you don't want to try any?
Aurora: yea, I'm sure.

so the two girls take the half pills, and make there way back t the club.

Ni-Ga

burry me a...

[grabs pistol]

bring his head to me!
I always wanted to say that

I feel...feel...emotionless
I seriously don't feel shit.
happy sad anger calm nothing I'm just here floating.

crushcruschcrush
they taped over your mouth scribbled out the truth with there lies.

seriousness
I feel everything and everyone is falling.
like we built ourselves up with false hopes and dreams and now they are collapsing upon themselves and we are all falling
my once vivid dreams have become foggy in my views on life have become jumbled and I am losing every ounce, inch, and strand of completeness I had.

I still have my family (N3TA) but I feel even we are falling apart
everyone is going through at least one problem and all the mighty people are taking dives
like seriously although I have 2 years on Taqee I look up to the dude. and He's going through some hellish monsters right now. Same with Ahmad and Key.
shit has become unbearable to even conceive.

I want some sort of stability and peace at mind not just a "this will hold off until I find more shit to cheer me up" I am tired of this vicious cycle of suppression and smiles

I want to take my brain out of my head and ring it out... draining all the brain wracking shit out. and hopefully make me truly happy

3 kings

Raymond Charles "Ray" Robinson

James Marshall "Jimi" Hendrix (b. Jonny Allen Hendrix)

Robert Nesta "Bob" Marley



super music group
Bob on the Vocals
Jimi on the Guitar
Ray on the keyboard!
man
shit would be A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!

I'm really upset I never got to see any of them live
but it's cool.

these people inspire me, yo!

so here's to
three kings,
three legends,
three Gods.

reasons

why for I picked the songs on my playlist.

uhh
Jammin', by Bob Marley- I picked this song because it has always brought me to a peaceful state of mind and I become one with the music. So before I blow someones head off. I put that on and jam out.

Just the Two of Us, by Bill Withers- I picked this song because I know my mom is with me in every step in life so it will always be the two of us.

Purple Haze, by Jimi Hendrix- excuse me while I kiss the kiss... nough said!

Lovin' You, byMinnie Reperton- I play this song in my head all the time I often catch myself humming it my mom used to sing it to me.

Hit the Road Jack- I don't even know why I love this song so much it's probably because I really want to be Ray Charles and he seemed like he had fun making this one.

Please Don't Let Me be Misunderstood, by Nina Simone- this song explains my life..
I'm just a soul whose intentions are good but I am often misunderstood. I've come to except that no one will ever completly understand me because I don't even understand myself completly.

so yea if you havn't check out the music homie.

I'm going to be a bad parent

ello folk out there in internet land
time for some more Anarchy

I hate school seriously.
I don't hate many things but school is one of those things that makes my fucking blood boil
and not school as in college or school like elementary, I mean High School ya'know those four year where hell literally rises from the ground and you are forced to attend for at least 2 and half years if you're lucky.

you're probably thinking What the Fuck do you know you dropped out Dino.
and to that I say "deez nutz" haha
nah but high school sucked life out of me to the point were i was on the brink of suicide several times, I then relialized that it wasn't for me and before I commied suicide I quit.
smart choice on my part.

again you're probably like that was a coward way out.
and to that I say "deez nutz" haha
but no I did the whole school thing as long as I possibly could I actually had every, no wait most intentions on walking across the stage and giving the finger to every administrator at the Graduation but a suck ass situation came up and I was basically forced to quit .

so why do you hate school so much, isn't that a pplace you learn?
haha funny I can seriouslly say I didn't learn to much of anything (school and acadimic wise) at my four year stay in hell besides some math equations and shit like that which I didn't retain so the shit didn't matter.

No don't get me wrong I love learning I know for a fact that I will continue to learn until the day I am dropped into my grave plot. It's just High School never taught me anything that the teachers were suppose to be teaching me I guess.

anywho here are the main reasons I hated high school.
1.I never learned shit.
2.The school i went to were corrupted with greed and money so I was used as a droid to past the standardized test so the school could get more money. (that we never saw)
3. I had no friends, not because I didn't want them, or because I was creppy.It was just because everybody in High School had two or more faces including me at times.
4. I never cared about the "fun" shit i.e.. sports, dances, spirit week none of that interested me
it was all the same shit every year and was so fucking over rated It would have gotten 39887 mics in the source
5. I were fighting my own demons and hell didn't help. Everyday I went home and pretty muched dope myself up because I didn't want to feel any emotions from school and everyday I went to school and dope myself up because I didn't want to feel the emotions from home.vicious cycle I am not proud of but I regret nothing.
6.High School is based on a format that doesn't fit everyone and it's not even close to fair for those who have no interest in one class but love another such as I. I hate math but loved art, and I loved history but hated P.E shit like that pissed me off. but I guess that's what college is for? huh...


that's a short list on why I hated high school so much

today...
is
the
day
I died.

Yes I've died once before, I don't plan to do it but once more

but in other news
Dex thinks I'm a creep but I'm ain't. I swear it.
I miss Bukkit and Lano
I need to hang with Devin
Taqee is my nigga for life I'd take a bullet to the head for his slim ass.
I may be getting my hair twisted soon. (yay for dreads)
new tattoo coming soon I'm getting a "Lou" on the inside of my lip.
(yea I know the shit will hurt but this is me caring [serious face]
I really wanna get into tattooing
fuck it I'm going to do it...
now I just need to focus.
It's always been one of my dreams so I think I'm going to go for it.
that way I can get all the tattooes I want which is a shit load of random jank


-Bitch I'm back on My grizzy Young Money where you at!?-

I am going to start catching back up with some old friends
I feel we've drifted way too far.
I havn't seen Devin in like six friggin months and thats not ok at all seeing how she's my bestfriend :(
I also am going to Lansing next weekend going to hang with Sam and hopifully see my MSU people (Boopie,Bonnie,Nailove, and Ashley's black ass haha)

I am FUCKING PISSED about 25 cent bag chips going up ten fucking cent!



I think I'm done here so run along and kill your idols

It's bloody empty.

scratch


I have a complex so complex
I couldn't even begin to explain in context,
or the content. Life an equation and problems are the constant.
So until I am content
I'll keep my feelings locked up like their convicts

I am really tired of life throwing me lemons and I'm fucking tired of Lemonade
can't I get a nice apple for once or maybe a few grapes?

hell!

I'm ok.
don't worry
I'll be fine
I always am.

Studio 19 (first scenes)

it was the last period of the last day of school at Webster high school and as with any high school all the children are rowdy and ready for their summer vacation to begin
Anthony Barden a 17 year old black male with a seemingly good head on his shoulders, and a bright future in the entertainment business.

Anthony: (talking to himself) Man I can't wait for this damn bell to ring, I'm so ready to be outta here.
Carter, Anthony's bestfriend since early childhood and a classic class clown. was sitting in the chair in front of Anthony and overheard him.
Carter: What you say bro?
Anthony: Nothin', just waiting on this damn bell!
Carter: Who you Tellin'?! I've been ready to get the hell out of here since September.

just then the Teacher Mrs. Torren cuts them off
Mrs. Torren a slim white woman with straight brown hair and who wore glasses straight from the 60's it seems like.

Mrs. Torren: you boys wanna share with the class!
Carter: Hell yea! I'm ready to go!
the class then burst into laughter
Mrs. Torren: Cut it out Carter. You're not the only one ready to get out of here.

Anthony takes a glimpse at the clock and notices his freedom is literally
seconds away
he turns to the class and starts to count down
7...6...5...4...3...2...RIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNGGGGGG

Anthony: Free at last, Free at last, Thank God almighty we're free at last.


Miguel De'Jesus a latino male standing about 6'4'' and very flamboyant
looks over at Anthony

Miguel: you know you shouldn't tease Dr. King like that.
Anthony: (laughs) why not?
Miguel: because of what he stood for, equal rights for ever--
Anthony: man, you can miss me with that civil rights bull shit.

as Carter and Anthony walk through the hallways they start to say their goodbyes which were more like "see you laters" seeing how most of the people that went to Webster.

as they walk outside they run into Jaqueline "Jaque" Nelson arguably one of the prettiest girl that goes to Webster. with light brown eyes, and jet black shoulder length, and a smile that would light up the darkest places on earth.

Jaque: What's up !?
Anthony: shit, I'm about to go home probably grab something to eat but after that I don't know.
Jaque: that's cool. What about you Carter?
Carter: (looking at a flyer a lady was passing out as the students were getting out of school) I may hit this party up...
Jaque & Anthony: what party?
Carter hands them the flyer.
Jaque: I heard about this place it's suppose to be pretty hype. My girl Lola went there before and said it was pretty coo-
Carter: wait Lola with the big...
Jaque : (narrows her eyes) Big what!?
Carter: big...big...big eyes
Jaque: yea I guess.
Anthony: yea I don't think I can go.
Jaque: Why not?
Anthony: cause I think my uncle has to work and I have to keep an eye on my lil brothers.
Carter: bring them fools with you.
Anthony: Do you realize who we're talking about?
Carter: yea I mean the twins are 14 and Vince is 15 it's about time they get into the party life.
Jaque: yea bring them along Tone, plus my girls Lola and Princess are going to be there. and Princess wants to see you.
Anthony: I guess I could bring them along...

later on that night.

Carter calls Anthony

Carter: ayo, You ready?

Anthony: nah, not yet still have to hop in the shower.

Carter: alright well I’m about to catch the train to your crib anyway.

Anthony: cool I should be out by the time you get here.

About 15 minutes later, Carter rings the Buzzer and Vince goes to answer.

Vince is one of Anthony’s younger brothers , he’s 15 and looks almost exactly like Anthony except he’s about 4 inches taller and has less facial hair and little more timid.

Carter: What’s up V-dog!

Vince: What’s up Carter.

Carter: So are you coming with us tonight?

Vince has a blank look on his face.

Anthony is standing behind Vince signaling Carter to be quiet about the party.

Vince turn Anthony

Vine: what is he talking bout Tone?

Anthony: nothing man don’t worry about it.

Carter: why you ain’t tell them about the party?

Anthony (to Carter): Shut the hell up!

Anthony (to Vince): Me, Carter and some more of my friends are going to a party at this new club

Vince: I want to go!

Anthony: No! Stay here and Keep and eye on Brian and Chris

Vince: What we’re like the same age!

Anthony: I know which is why you should all stay here and play the game all night or something, I’ll take you guys next time.

Vince: man whatever.

Carter rubs Vince’s head as they walk out

Carter: see you late kiddo.

Vince: shut up foo!

Carter and Anthony are walking to the subway as Carter’s phone rings

It’s Jaque

Carter: What’s up Jaque?

Jaque: where you at?!

The back round is muffled and the music is blasting

Carter: I can’t here you!...

Jaque: Where you at Boy?! You need to be here this party is knockin’ something serious.

Carter: Straight!?

Jaque: Yes, Get here now!

Carter turns to Anthony.

Carter: We need to be there NOW!

Carter and Anthony start to run toward the subway….

update.

dude
having no internet sucks all kinds of monkey doodle dick.

uhhh

so I have no job.
no money
no car.
kinda have no "house"

so...
what should I do!?
smile shit...

I'm alright I'll get me a job,job will get me money, money will get me car... and then I can hopifully get me a apt. so yea job hunting thursday...seriously

uhh still waiting on the GED results (might need to call them)
uhhh I love ALL my friends they're awesome

I've gotten into politics and the history channel a lot since no having a phone or the internet
it's kinda cool I actually like politics they're kinda funny

soooo

short Christmas list.

a digital camera
clothes I wear a medium in everything. 32 in pants...7 3/8 hats...
9 in shoes
money
and a drawing pad.
I also want a tattooing kit.

I got'em.

8 ball corner pocket

oh yea!

I went there now run along....
Kill Your Idols.

this is the victory lap, and I'm leaving you can't get me back!

what's up bitches!?

again that's rhetorical...

I haven't blogged in a while so lets update you folks.

I apparently didn't get the job at Jimmy John's...or at least that haven't called yet.
so back to square one.
I really want some flaming hot Cheetos man.

-So what's up Dino?
Not much, just waiting for my big break...
-Big Break?
Yes, my big break it's comin' I will be famous, I will be legendary.
-How do you plan on becoming famous.
Not Famous...Legendary, I am not sure just yet...because I want to do soo much and have so many interest and so many talents...
-Talents such as?
I have a pretty wicked imagination, I'm currently writing up a screen play and a series of short story, also I am a pretty good (self-proclaimed) artist, and poet/lyricist. I also want to do radio and maybe a couple of tv shows and maybe a movie some day I think I'm a pretty good actor.
-Oh, I see.
yea, I can do so much....oh I almost forgot I want to get into tattooing also. Ever since I were younger they have also intrigued me. so yea I want to get into that also.
-So basically you have a whole variety of talent?
Yea, I can do a lot.
-I see you have a new campaign "Kill Your Idols", whats that all about.
uh...It's hard to explain but basically how I look at life. You know in order to be the best you have to beat the best...so yea Kill Your Idols is the new motto and the name of my soon to come production company so look out for that baby!


this has been an interview by Kill Your Idols productions


-

I'd rather be yo N-I-G-G-A

so
how goes it folks out there in internet land?
that was rhetorical question because I honestly couldn't give two fucks...
=)

I will know by Thursday if I got the job at Jimmy John's I hope so cause this being broke shit ain't fun anymore.

I've been twisting my hair taking it down, re-twisting it again, and taking it down...
indecisive much!? yep

Berris said "you're an absurdity to the stereotypical humans...doomed 2 alter the perceptions of stereotypical life." it kinda creeped me out because I've always felt this way but to know someone else thinks the same is kinda wicked.

I miss not being able to hang with India all day, doing absolutely at all but it was with her so I was happy.

I seriously want to try some salvia , it seems like a trippy experience I should do before I die.

I wish I was around to witness Bob Marley, Jimi Hendrix,or Ray Charles perform live...
they were all geniuses musical wise.


uhh I think I'm gunna end this one for now.

Ha.

I am also better than you...

2 lil women. and an Asshole!

holy shit I'm on a roll

I don't know why I'm up so late I have to be up early tomorrow for my first day/test
at Jimmy John's
but I can't I figure I'm gunna worry myself into failing epically and not get the job...
:(

[crosses fingers]

I plan on going to see me mommy again before it gets cold.
It's really comforting talking to her Conz is gunna come with me =)
she's amazing ,as i all my friends I wish they could have met my mom in real life though =(
makes me sad cause I feel like I'm missing out on that part in a teenagers life where they "hate" their mom...

yea I have Nita (my sister) to argue with but it's not the same, I wanna join in that convo where everyone is mom bashing because my mom isn't letting me do something I probably have no business doing.

eh...

like I was saying though Conz is amazing, she gorgeous he smile is really amazing and her eyes speak volumes she has so much "SOUL" it's kinda scary , she smart as hell to be honest she used to intimidate me back in the 7th grade because she was so aware of everything, and she's real she doesn't hold back much of anything.I love Constance Marie [I know I'm missing a name] James

and on to the next "woman". Khloe ____ Daniels...now what could I say about Khloe.
hell a lot shit...she is one of the most influential people in the world I tell you!
she's smart, she's gorgeous and her eyes are... like the secret to the universe, I honestly don't think me and her are from this dimension/planet/time period none of that, I think our thought processes are so complex it reverts into simplicity and is as simple as "you will never understand". although me and her are not always on the same page we usually balance each other out I look at her as my lil universe baby sister I calls her Hominy it's a play on harmony because I say we click so well. I love Khloe blank-a-dee-blank Daniels.

now on to this Asshole I'm speaking of, Taqee Ishaad Mbonisi Vernon.
since the day I knew of your existance I thought you were an asshole, but not in the same sense as I do today...I was alsmot sure I was going to hate you when I met you but that quickly changed. you are one of the most funniest people I've ever met. seeing how you don't water down shit
"The bad thing about me is that I think before I say anything"
I remeber when you said that at Conz's open house it made me love you a little bit more.
people say that you're an asshole I think thats just who you are so they can either one except it or 2 stand on a chair tie a noose around there neck and then set the chair on fire.

so there ya'go folks
3 very influential people in my life


well there is it.

Mi Ark Enename

so I was reflecting on some things and I've realized I procrastinate wayy to much.
I also realized I'm a very impatience person, kinda of an oxymoron I hate when people "beat around the bush" I want the truth straight up like a shot with no chaser.

I also have realized me and my friends are not much different than most groups of teens I mean as far as for the average Detroit nigga teen gang, yea we are a little on the "weirdo" side but as far as outcasting everyone else we pretty much do the same as everyone else.
we tease/criticize people for wearing a certain brand or "style" of clothes
we make fun of "losers". we want to fight almost as much as the average hood nigga. esp Conz. j/k

but yea I'm not saying this is a bad thing but I was just reflecting on my gang and myself and although we are not the same we are all the same. if that makes sense




p.s I have me a job at Jimmy John's I'm kinda happy no more broke days and I can get me a car soon because come Nov. I'll have two jobs which means I can buy a car!

11:47

sooo
the VMAs
were all in all pretty tight.

I would blog about the whole ordeal but I'd rather not.
I'm gunna give a few foot notes though

Russell Brand should be elected as the international comedian of the decade.
I've developed a crush on Rihanna by watching her "disturbia" performance
Lil Wayne and T-pain are foolish
Lil Wayne and Kid Rock were dope.
everything else was eh...
Paramore fucking rocks my socks off
Jordin Sparks is a douche
and Kanye is a genius...wait he's a FUCKING genius.

but yea thats about all I'm going to say about that.

as for some serious blogger type shit.

I've been on a really trippy poetry trip as of late.
I'm also doing a experiment on beauty on facebook
(ask me about the details)
it's on facebook if you'd like to check it.


uhh
that is all.

p.s. I need to do so much shit. and it's overwhelming and I don't quite know where to start.
I'm going to figure it out though.

Mrs. Brown (the one and only)

I love her


she loves me more

but I love her the most.


bitch I'm paid that's all I have to say!

I know I talk about India a lot but I don't care she's my everything!
I don't want to fathom the thought of us not being together, it was meant to be I swear it the fates must have brought her to me or me to here or us to each other whatever!

I don't know but I'm happy as fuck it happened!