ay.

playing GTA III. classic.

I am pretty content.
nothing really to be worried about...
I need me a job a new one and a good one.
atleast so I could get my own apt. or car.
I'll go searching soon like Monday probably

I have so many thoughts running ramped in my mind it's scary...
I am currently thinking up a story line for a drawing I did if it's good once I am done thinking it'll eventually make it's way to cyberspace.

fuck you Amber!

So I'm hanging with Berris, Christian, and the almighty Taqee right...
and we're starting a band...

Christian: lead guitarist.
Taqee: Bass.
Berris: Drummer
and I of course am on the vocals...

name: Penguin Riot!

so yea we're prob about to go scoop ATB and then go to Chilli's random shit to do on a friday night...

faces in the crowd.

Day 2 of facebook boycott.

I'm doing fine.
I honestly hate the fact that I allowed my life to be so wrapped up in facebook.
pretty crazy.

My Alarm clock just went off and it's about 9:33.
I've always set my clock at the most random times just to be different...

I told India a secret that I have never told anyone else. I think I kinda scared her =(
not in a way where'd she wouldn't wanna be with me anymore but in another way like I kinda told her and it put a lot of shit into a different perspective.

Some days I trick myself into believing she's still around, It helps until I snap back into reality.
not long ago I seen a kid walking down the street with his mother asking all kinds of questions I figured he couldn't be anymore then 6, and then I realized the kid in me had died. I was once that kid asking all the questions, I was once that kid making sure to grab mommy's hand before crossing the street, I was once that kid...and now I'm not. Haven't been since the day she left.
I stopped asking questions, I stopped looking for the hand that once helped me crossed the street, because I cross it alone, I stopped being a kid... and as much as I'd hate to admit I still wanna be that kid.

My mind is a safe.

GRRR!

I haven't blogged in a min.
sorry folks.
but updates!

uhh I want a new phone. :)
I'll probably wait until my birthday to get it I want the Samsung Memoir



yea it's an 8 megapixel camera and a phone.

other news... uh It's My sister's birfday :) she's 23 and she's preggers I'll find out if I'm having a neice or a nephew in about 2 weeks or so. I also played the lottery for the first time today and I won! I played the Megamillions I won 3 bucks. which is pretty good if you ask me. since i only spent a buck on the ticket. I've also seem to have gotten over my dyslixic anger fits. I used to have them really bad but now I can read a whole novel and the words won't switch up on me and I won't get frustrated. I'm giving up facebook for Lint, well not really cause I am not the reliogous folk but I think I spend to much time on it and I should start doing other shit like reading for instanst. so out with facebook and in with real ones lol. I also decided to spend more time with my family. Uhh.... I don't know what else to blog about.

but yea thats about it for the update so later folks.

Ihatemyselftoo..

I admire you. always know and believe that. Everything you have been through and all that you still endure you're a strong person.

I am beginning to hate you. you have made me. I don't understand why you claim pain.

I hope you grow up soon.

the pros and cons of breathing are beginning to become slighted toward the cons.

4-4-09 can't come fast enough.